... am back after some absence... other than 2 visits from yuan n cm on mon and thurs to play tennis, nothing much has happened. just been glued to my tv and computer... actually, i dun really mind. i remember times like this in sec 3 and 4... haha, chatting with other pple i didn't know personally over the net. i only knew they were tennis fanatics like me... :p

and i remembered it was cuz of that reason i flunked my common tests in sec 4, and end of year exams in sec 3. well, at least it drove me to do better during prelims. rite now, my motivation which was so thin to begin with is waning so bad. i dun feel like studying at all though i've so much to cover, so much to remember. and all tt just makes me feel like giving up without even trying. there are so many other things i wanna do, so much fun to experience. why am i stuck in school? sometimes, i really wonder what's the purpose in my life... why i have to endure school, stupid teachers and exams. what do i actually hope to achieve? i have no answer. its as if i've lived my life in vain, for no purpose at all.

i've just been thinking abt my life thus far... realised tt my most memorable moments are those spent w my friends and family... nothing to do w any achievements whatsoever... or maybe, i've just achieved nothing great enough yet...

1-3: err, i learnt to walk and talk? i dunno haha... :P

4-6: my sister was born, had fun playing with the baby... :) remember the times i spent w my grandparents, they were really great... i've always been terribly mischievious. i remember flooding the toilets, scattering talcum powder everywhere so it became slippery... haha, often got caned.

7-9: primary school! in py, i fought a lot... teacher told my parents and i got caned real bad once i remember. but tt time, ironically, i didn't fight, my specs just broke, but i really didn't fight. :p remembered i kissed my classmates hand to apologize to her, is quite amusing in retrospect... haha. but we were good friends, i wonder where she is now. in p3, someone plotted to overthrow the monitor, and i helped. we got caught... haha. oops. often, i'd not do my work my mum set and came up w many ways of cheating her... sighs, i've always been so lazy. then faced a tough decision, didn't know if i should join gep cuz i'd have to leave my friends. now tt i've experienced life there, i'm glad i did for the experience was just priceless.

10-12: thing those days, i was really happy. though the work was hard, it was challenging, and the people i met, they were all so different and unique. they all were so quirky and funny... remember all the silly things we'd do during lessons and piss teachers off (unintentionally), and games we'd play during recess. its a pity my best friends, save for 1 went to chinese high at the end of it all and we drifted. i miss u guys... also in P5, went to yr chalet, first time. remembered i was so annoyed i didn't get the stay over, but daryl and your dad talked my dad into it... u were as eloquent as always... ;) the next few years, though many things did happen, they were always thoroughly enjoyable... :) thanx..

13: just went into ri... this class was one of the best ever. i'd always remember it. would u agree yuan and yh? :p haha... both of u aren't gonna see this anything soon cuz of internet problems huh? ;) class was so spirited and we did so many things together, had so much fun together. sure there were disputes, but whenever crunch time came, we all stood together. remember the class chalet at the end of the year... was so sad tt we weren't gonna be in the same class the next year... 3rd lang was great. xx, mark and i used to have so much fun making jokes of our french teachers. man, we'd laugh and laugh till we had tears in our eyes... :p

14: was obsessed w pokemon card games... spent long afternoons at pple's places playing, or just a j8 buying and looking. played online too... and it proved to be the start of my demise. i was advised to drop french at the end of the year cuz i didn't really meet the criteria. well, it was only by a mark and i could've appealed, but i didn't. and maybe it was better or i'd have struggled even more the next year. and i remembered pissing off my french teacher - miss bulldog so bad. i locked her out once, and someone else did it a second time. she got so angry, she screamed and told us all to get out. she then scolded us outside along the corridor, and accused my of doing it. i didn't, and well, i shouted back and her and stuff. and she said, how there u have to audacity to speak to me like tt. hmmm, quite amusing, but i wasn't too pleased when she threatened to tell the school... haha. oh, and somehow cm and i started off on the wrong foot when we met each other then. he was somehow convinced i was a jinx and seemed to rat on everything i did. somehow, things changed after abt half a year...

15: think it was cm and yuan tt introduced me to tennis. soon yh became quite interested too. i became obsessed. i'd spent hours everyday reading article after article, and on the tennis board, which i'm back on. yeah... flunked my exams, didn't do work. and all this while, i've been hooked on computer games too. went to xx's house ever so often to escape band... haha, he'd know how i'd find new routes to run away and stuff. xx left tt year. still miss him, but i guess life still goes on... felt weird to have him gone, so weird... haha. but remembered tt the 5 of us used to sit together and we'd just not concentrate in class but laugh and talk so much. and well, tease each other, only person not to be the butt of jokes was yh. ha...

16: my obsessions continued. oh, cm, yuan and i played so many silly games during recesses. we invented so many idiotic games, and it was too funny. haha... :p other than tt, was glad the class did well during o's and showed the teachers they were wrong abt us... haha. had lotsa fun staying up late to watch slams... :p and slping in class after tt... haha

k, i shall not talk abt my jc life yet since there are too many things i shouldn't and wouldn't be talking abt, but, i feel better after thinking abt the more positive things in the first 16 years of my life... :)